I was constantly told by my parents to save up my money for future rainy days...a very goof advice not just to me but to anyone who read this. However, lately i felt that i must do it because i have to... not because i'm willing to. And that stresses me up.
Lately, i've been saving money to purchase a decent HD compatible television as well as a brand new Playstation 3 console. I admit i never actually successfully manage to save my hard earned cash to buy the things i'm hoping to have except for this ones. At the same time, i'm thinking of what my mom said about saving money and spending on things that is neccessary. Plus, i have to fund for my lil sis religious class study materials. That got me stuck. I felt pity for my mom, and i would try my best to help but at the same time... it's not everyday i got to save enough money to buy the things i want. It doesn't matter what i choose, i would ended up feeling either guilty or dissatisfied.
On the other hand, i felt moody this year on Hari Raya Haji. I felt that the family bonding i used to have with my family and relatives seems to fade away slowly. I wasn't noticeable anymore. No one actually bothered to talk to me except for my Aunt Zai and Uncle Aidil, lil sister and my 2 cousins Ana and Yani. It didn't bother me at first, but later i discover... it is a big deal. Moment like this i miss my late Aunt Nia. Only god knows what I'm feeling.
On a happier note... Shall be making Chocolate Fudge with lil sis tomorrow. Well what can i say? She is the only sibling who ever cares for me through thick and thin which is why i'm afraid that one day, she might not need her brother anymore to keep her accompay. When that day comes, i shall leave it to the hands of God Himself. :)
PS: I'm thinking of not buying the TV, but just save it for the PS3 console plus some games.
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